Facing The Roadblocks Of Embarrassment

(Introspective) - One of the biggest hurdles to starting my recovery was asking for help. It was embarrassing. Humiliating. It showed weakness. Hearing the words leaving my mouth and instantly regretting the fragile vulnerability it revealed.

Hearing the sobs and despair in my voice, a huge wave of embarrassment would wash over me. Triggering my impulse to hang up the phone and retreat into denial for another day. The clever deception of depression in complete control.

Here is what real control is: HONESTY. Honestly participating in your recovery equals complete control. You would never let a liar lead the quest for truth, and the truth is only with honest participation will the rewards of recovery come. As victims of abuse and addiction, we have a constant feeling of not being in control of our emotions and directions of our lives.